Friday, September 24, 2010
hey i know it has been awhile since the last blogged. well, time flies.. the time is 1.15am and the date today is 24 September, IT IS EXACTLY THREE MONTHS! wow! quite unbelievable.
now that everything is improving, social networking been advancing such as twitter, facebook - it just makes them look more convenient than typing here. all the thoughts, the rants, the happiness will be surfacing on facebook or twitter status. yea?
it just a random thing that i suddenly thought of blogging, especially at this time. sometimes it just great to have "something" that you can keep forever such as blogging, diary, then you will read through it when you are bored. man, it will bring those wonderful memories you had in the past. you can see how much you have grown, the thinking change, perceptions are different.
now that i am older by age, thank God my heart will always be young - that's forever. :) many things are starting to coming my way, i know the reality is much more stressful than being a student. the society which we are currently living in is very much differ from the past, at times - money do take some control.
in terms of money, who doesnt wish to have many digits in their bank account? who doesnt want to have a better life? who doesnt wanna shake leg and just waiting for money to comeby itself?
yes, we all can dream big - no matter how big or small you want it to be, one day you just gonna wake up. THAT'S WHEN YOU START WORKING ON YOUR DREAMS IN ORDER TO MAKE THEM COME TRUE. remember, nothing is impossible. just tell yourself that you can do it. alright, i know by saying is easy and physical doing it is hard. then if you yourself gonna have low confidence then no matter how much your friends or relatives support you, it will still fail. because you have already planted a negative mindset in your head.
people dont stay with you forever, people grow old and will get tired of talking. BUT it doesnt mean that they dont love you - it will be childish in thinking that way. bear in mind, the ones who love you will never want you bad, that's what enemy normally does. therefore this is your life, YOU TAKE CONTROL AND LIVE FOR YOURSELF.
ALWAYS ALWAYS, think before you react. dont make any assumptions in life, it will do you no good. when things happen, analyse and evaluate on what should be done. self-reflection - it's good because it gives some "alone time".
Life is yours, ball is on your hand. So choose. :)
EN:)
1:14 AM
HELLO! i am in class now, lecturer is rushing student to submit their assignment. it's never doubt that being at this level is stress, no - VERY STRESS.
dont really have a GOOD sleep these period, i pray that i am able to have ONE DAY of looong and undisturbed sleep to replenish my vitamins! pimples are coming out to say HI to the world. AGAIN! aiyoooo.
think lecturer gonna start class already. see ya! :)
EN:)
9:48 AM
HELLO! this week is my one week break and guess what i have done during this one week break? basically nothing. SUPPOSED TO DO MY ASSIGNMENT but i dont know why i was feeling lazy from Monday to Wednesday. beats me too.
i decided to get my energy back, so i went to gym yesterday and guess what? my one week is coming to an end. SIGHS! reality strikes back! whyyy!!?? HAHA! thank God that i have done some of the models and some written work. BUT THEN is still stress, there are many words need to be written AND more research need to be done.
lecturer has much high expectations from us, i know it. maybe because this is our final year, we better give our best shot for it. ONCE AND FOR ALL! every lesson i go, the stress never leave. it just becoming bigger and bigger. NEVERTHELESS, i will JIAYOU! yeah, EN JIAYOU!! :)
RIM, here i come~
Being kind to others means cruelty to oneself. Sadly, this is never a lie. i simply have no idea why does others want to take people's kindness for granted. is it they appear to be an EASY TARGET to you?
c'mon, dont you have heart? dont you have a brain to think? NEVERMIND. one time is enough, they will notice it and be smart next time. AT LEAST they have the brain to think. :) heart, of cos they have too - A BIG BIG HEART if not why would you take them for granted. HA! as said, one time is enough and this is final. :)
EN:)
4:02 PM
the month of May is coming to an end soon. time flies and i have just celebrated my 21st birthday about 2 weeks ago.
now that i am officially 21 and in reality, i AM ALREADY an ADULT. this means i am held for bigger responsibilities, accountable for everything which i will be doing and things which happened or going to happen. hence, i am answerable for EVERY SINGLE THING.
who ever says being adult is cool? now that i have already reach this stage, i think i would rather turn back time, to being a secondary school girl. every morning will just struggling out of bed for school, then rushing here and there because YOU ARE SO GOING TO BE LATE! but what does matter, was the process of doing all these made me happy, enjoyable.
if i were to be late for classes now, the feeling is OH-MAN-IMMA-GONNA-MISSOUT-SOMETHINGS. see the differences? people grow, economy changes, environment beautifies.
PERCEPTIONS
we were told to look things in different perception, do not assume or lay your judgement for a quick moment, in other words - dont judge the book by its cover.
for instance, you see one woman standing alone along the road. it just so happened that she lost her way and align at red district area. SO DOES THAT MEAN THAT SHE WORKS THERE?
for instance, you see one woman always with different man. DOES THAT MEAN THAT SHE IS A LOOSE WOMAN?
there are many cases when comes to perceptions. when we see/look at the person, our mind have already made a statement or opinion about this particular person. tell me, is it fair or not? what if the person happened to be the opposite of what you think, will you go and apologise to them? it will be hurtful, isnt it?
to be honest, no matter how strong a person can be or appeared to be, he/she will breakdown one day. what's great about these people, is that they are able to stand up quick to face the reality after a long night cry.
nobody has ever said that life is easy-going, a bed of roses, one smooth riding process. life do consist of tests, challenges - all these are to make you stronger, wiser. BUT OF COURSE, there will be joyous moments for you to enjoy and remembered about.
life is given to you by God, make it joyful. though i know it's quite hard to smile or be happy when times are bad/tough. NOTE! THIS IS THE TIME WHERE YOU NEED TO LEARN HOW TO BE POSITIVE (be it thinking or attitude).
it is never easy to go through these period but when you have decided to think positively, change your mindset. things will be more easier to handle, you will feel lighter in yourself. Try it :)
what is the greatest thing you have, that is a brain to generate your mind to process for thinking. so use it wisely. dont get your mind be corrupted with negativity.
being positive doesnt mean you are being over confident, it just that you learn how to be optimistic in life. positive and confident are two different things.
positive is more towards action, confident is towards feeling.
here's the difference:
Positive - emphasizing what is laudable, hopeful, or to the good; constructive
Confident - having strong belief or full assurance; sure, sure of oneself; having no uncertainty about one's own abilities
i pray, in the period of tough times, i will not back out but have the courage of moving forwards with a smile. never mind about the tears which will be rolling down while i smile, because it would be all worthwhile.
EN:)
7:49 PM
Wednesday, April 07, 2010
i guess i am seriously neglecting my blog BUT I HAVE REASON of doing so. you know? HAHA. anyway, i'm really glad for the things which are happening right now. :)
exams ended one week plus ago and now i'm on holidays but i left about 5 days to enjoy then i'm off to my books already. yeah, i know it's quite fast and my exams are fast too. on the coming monday, i will on year 3 - the exams stand 70% which is really a lot for my course.
JUST JIAYOU MOOORREEE! :) I CAN DO IT!!! :D
looking for part time job now so that i can go hong kong for some shopping trips and buy the things which i like. can i get one good part time job like soon? please? i wanna go overseas, it has been quite some time since the last trip to HONG KONG!!!
in life, there are different chapters for you to go through and the thing is that, you will go through one chapter of it in life. is this a good or bad thing? it is good because you will gain experience and learn something from it. it is bad because you will somehow caught in dilemma, dont really know what to do or how to handle.
BUT, there will always be somebody there in talking things to you and at the same time, waking you up the ideas - injecting some sense into you! all these are very much appreciated.
when all else fail, you are the only one who can put blame for. you live for your own life, you are SUPPOSED to be responsible for the things you did. hmm? you make your OWN decision, what people's duty is just telling you what she/he knows not MAKING the choice for you. :)
EN:)
12:29 AM
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
i know i have been neglecting my blog for quite LONG time. it seems like i only blog when it is festive season. HAHA! well, the time is not right when i wanna blog it.
hmmm guess i have many things to say but i dont know where to start from. the month of January just passed and now, it is coming to the end of Februrary already. time really flies. sometimes i just wish time would slow down alittle.
i did not say 24hours is not enough, it is just about my time management. yea i will definitely do something! this month - Februrary is a busy month for me. it is my dad's birthday, denise's birthday and CHINESE NEW YEAR - HONG BAO DAY! :)
during the period of chinese new year, dad went to make sotong balls for me because i requested it. WAAIITT! i also got help, not just eat only. i helped to cut the sotongs and the next day, i went to squeeze out one by one with my own hands. yes i admit that my KONG-FU is not as skilled as my dad's. he is fast and very precise. every ball is identical! mine? BIG then SMALL. HAHAHA! it's nice, my handwork are given to baby and his family :) he said it is nice too.
during reunion dinner or chu yi, cannot remember. i asked ah kim whether she will be cooking my favourite dish - curry vegetables. she said no because market is closed. BUT on the day when we were going to her house, she called me and asked me not to put her aeroplane as she cooked my favourite dish!
I FEEL SO LOVED, REALLY AM. :) Thank you everybody for doting me so much!
today, while i was on the way to orchard after class. thoughts upon thoughts just keep flashing through my mind - about the recent, about the past. it is all in bits and pieces.
this phrase - lost one, gain one - just keep appearing. is this real? can somebody tell me? i myself also dont know. it is quite saddening actually. when you think that everything is going smoothly then BAM, argument arise. result? could no longer be mend it back. hmmm.
tsktsk. just want to say, i Miss you.
EN:)
10:29 PM
HAPPY HAPPY TWENTYTEN! :Di know i have been like missing the whole of December 2009 and most of November 2009. HAHA! wanted to blog yesterday but was not at home and hence, unable to blog on the last day of 2009!!!!
the year 2009 has been great for me: being able to enroll into degree course, knowing more friends in my class, getting closer/building rapport with friend, being loved by EVERYBODY. :) though there were many ups and downs this year, because of the financial tsunami. we pulled through it together as a nation. i know this doesnt really affect me much but still affect alittle la. allowance leh? HAHAHAHA! crazy me.
now that it is 2010, and i know i'm reaching 21 in few months time. this placed number of responsibilities on me but the very first thing is that I AM OFFICIALLY AN ADULT! this sound veryyyy OLD for me, dont it?
i'm feeling the same way as what baby M blogged when she reached 21. it means more responsibilities, more accountabilities and TO BE MORE BEHAVED in the things which you are doing!
nevertheless, life goes on. we will grow old someday, SO JUST BE POSITIVE and BE JOVIAL! :)
what's important in life - a step with confidence, a journey with peace and a day with smile. this will be the sweetest thing in life. *hearts*
p.s: i will do something about the banner soon. hahaha.
EN:)
4:07 PM
